心跳的频率

最近，不知道自己是怎么了，整天都在想不三不四的东西，想到来都会搞到自己突然很emo，完全不想跟人说话～～～

有时候，我还真的不知道自己要的是什么～～～自从初一那天的事情之后，我就有时会陷入胡思乱想的痛苦深渊，究竟是我自己自作多情还是什么呢？自从那天起，感觉到他对待我的态度正在慢慢的改变，慢慢的在疏远我，慢慢的想把我踢掉～～～有时候还会觉得自己在拿热脸贴在人家的屁股上，完全就是一厢情愿的付出，什么都得不到的那种～～～

就如我在上星期对自己说的，在棋盘上走错了一步棋，就真的满盘皆输了。我很讨厌这种感觉，我很不想要这种感觉，我很讨厌，很讨厌我自己～～～为什么总是那么的冲动，总是那么的直接，完全不留余地的冲～～～到后来，结果都是碰到一鼻子的灰，碰到自己一直跌倒，碰到自己遍体鳞伤～～～～

或许，我还真的不配拥有爱情，完全不配拥有一个自己喜欢的人，一个自己真的很想在一起的人～～～或许的或许，我所做的一切都是错的～～～或许，我还真的是一定要forever alone？？Forever alone这个词，一直在我的圈子里面打转，一直都挥之不去，一直都是像冤魂那样纠缠着我，一直都是～～～

到底我要在何时才真正配拥有属于自己的爱情故事？大家都说单身好，可是我就是那种怕孤单，怕寂寞，什么都怕的那种～～～说我 hiao 也好，说我皮痒也好，怎样说我都好，难道对自己的情感负责不好吗？难道就是要抱憾终身才甘愿？我不要～～～

到最后，我都还是要说，如果真的给我找到另一半，很肯定的，我会非常的珍惜～～～绝对不会随便放手～～～绝对不会随便说分手～～～

3rd Putrajaya International Hot Balloon Festival 2011 - update 1

It's around 4.20am here..... I'm still at Nilai Inti University College friend's hostel room.... But I'm going back to KL home soon because it's time to prepare to go Ampang and meet my friends there then go Putrajaya lo....

Let's hope the weather will be clear at this morning..... Sincerely hope.... =P

After this update, I'll try to have a bunch of photo at here.... My blog..... SK2, sorry for din ask u go..... Because I also following my friends here.... hehe.....

Ok, gotta go from Nilai now due to time constraint.... lolx...

Good bye all...... ^^

Endless Night..... Insomnia Night........ =X

Again, at the silent midnight.... Most of my housemate are rushing their assignment for the presentation and I have nothing to do... But, I'm still don't want to sleep....

After years, I'm falling in love back to the Need For Speed Most Wanted.... Break the first 3 blacklist for less than 3 hours time..... How efficient I am..... XD

By the way, I'm still dilemma that wanted to goto the Putrajaya Presint 2 to take a look for the Hot Baloon festival or not..... But a bit lazy goto Putrajaya from Setapak... XD

But now, all I want is falling sleep..... argh...... This is a must...... Don't ever think about anything again....... Faster lie on the bed and sleep!!! Gogogo!!! XD

At the end of the article, I'm here to share a really nice soundtrack comes from The Lion King by Walt Disney.....

The song title is "Can You Feel The Love Tonight" by Elton John.... One of the most talented song composer and singer....



Ok, time to sleep now...... Enjoy the wonderful melody.... hehe.....

Cough again....... aiks........

What again....... Sore throat about to recover soon but now cough again...... WTH is this...... >.<....

Any solution for cough.... I need to get rid of this!!!! >.<

Random post!!!

Today, it's my first time go and watch movie in a Premier Class GSC Room...... Woohoo......

Since CCJ today knock off earlier, then straight plan go watch I'm Number Four at GSC Berjaya Times Square just now..... What I can said is, the seat is just comfortable... It's very big until I can fit my both hands in it comfortable..... But not as good as GSC Gold Class which saw earlier from my friends Facebook album picture....

After watch movie, we straight rush back to Setapak due to my car road tax only until 9 March 2011 and go fetch Weapon with Eaton n KS just now.......

But then, at these few weeks back, I always go watch movie and 2 of the session is free PREMIER ticket which is Drive Angry PREMIER watch with Eva and Unknown PREMIER watch with Claire..... Both of it is those thrill type of movie, quite nice actually...... But I watch them for free!!! Thx again to Jene's sister, Soon Wen..... Really thx a lot..... rfrf

Now, it's already 3:45am of 10 March 2011..... Insomnia again? NO WAY!!! Think too much for wat....... Do what you should do better than think wild...... GOGOGO!!!! Must go and sleep now.... Tomorrow still need to do assignment.... ARGHHH~~~~~

Just lie on bed and listen to my favorite melody.... Classical Piano series and try to falling asleep..... Good Night all.... Maybe won't come and post again....... >.< ...

这样的夜，我想你了~~~

这样的夜，我想你了~~~

想起了你的一颦一笑，
想起了你的倩影，
想起了跟你在一起的种种。

开心的，
不开心的点点滴滴；

就是你，
只有你，
只有你知道我曾经失落，
只有你知道我曾经暗自躲在墙角，
偷偷的，
暗自在心理淌着血，
而你也是和我一样，
曾经给我知道，
你的心里正在淌血。

现在的你，
心里已经不再淌血；
唯独剩下我，
心里还在一直，
一直，
一直的淌血，
就很像永远都止不住那样，
一直的在淌血。

Sick until speechless.......

This week is my most bad week in this year....... >.<

I'm fallen sick badly until now....... From last Sunday until now.......... >.<

Sore throat and cough were come and became my best friends at this week.... Before that I'm still naive that i can just took some cough syrup and it will get well soon, but it's proven I'm WRONG!!!! T^T

At last, I go and seek doctor at last Wednesday.... The bill is shocking me..... RM70?! YES, It's RM70...... WTH~~~~ @.@

But after seek doctor and had the medicine, finally half recovered.... My sexy sound gone...... hehe.....

Until now, I'm still keep cough and cough..... Cough until non-stop until I drink some water to smoothing my throat..... Hope that I can get well soon bah......

Later CS them go eat Jogoya lo...... But I can't join them...... What a shame.... But maybe it's time to save money, I think..... lolx......